I was doing okay today, until a friend IMed me and asked me how I was doing.
Suddenly I wasn't numb anymore. I felt every pain in my life. The most recent loss being the hottest sting.
No wonder people self-medicate. But it isn't the answer. I know. So I am not going to do it.
I think life is one big long grieving process that allows us to finally accept what life actually is.
You know, we are such a narcissistic society (Self Focused) and we are taught (by the Bleeping Village) to believe that life only okay when it is easy and fun and happy and fits into our preconceived plans. If it isn't, we think something is wrong.
Well, What if this is as good as it gets? What if those moments of love were my full portion.
Well, if you ask, today I am doing FINE - as in: F-ed-up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional.
At least it is better than FUBAR.
At least I know where to look too. Imagine if I didn't...
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